Sunday, May 20, 2007

Kos's New Look

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Some of us weren't familiar with my "old look," but I have changed it recently.

Also, for those who haven't figured it out, I'm now calling myself Kos. Kos just feels like the right name for me at this point in time. So now, on with this apparently picture-ladened post!

An angry-ish face. More of a glare...

Raising an eyebrow:

And last, to prove I have more than two facial expressions:


Well, I'm glad that's over with. I hate being pictured...

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Friday, May 18, 2007

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Turns out I'm just an over-reactive ass. Oh well.

What is there to post about aside from that I'm finally through with my sophomore year of school?

I need a job badly. I want to get a $2700 MacBook Pro 17" before school starts. Suggesting I get minimum wage at least, it would take nearly the whole break, if not the whole break. Before I go seeking a job, I need to get my A+ cert. I gotta do that before June 30th for sure. That's when the test I'm taking expires. Hopefully I can get in there and take the stupid $320 tests and get on with my life so I can get a job doing something I know how to do. If that doesn't go so well, then I'm interested in BestBuy down the road or Target, also just down the road. My point is this: I NEED A JOB! Something that pays me more in one day than I make in a month now. (~$30 tax free!)

Sorry about that.... I just want my MacBook Pro really bad... :(

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Tuesday, May 15, 2007

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I think my ex is trying to get back together with me. Not my first ex, but my second. I think she thinks that I'm really trying to win her back, but I'm not doing anything!

Since I don't know what else to do, I sent her a rather long email trying to explain nicely that if she wants me back, I have to disappoint her because not only can I never be the guy she wants and needs, but I simply am not interested in having relationships again.

Anyways, yeah... I'm tired again. So I'll go to bed early, since it's only about 10:30. Yeah...

*howls*

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Monday, May 14, 2007

*insert fitting title here*

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Well, I'm in a slightly better mood today. So first things first: Outback Steakhouse.

They do that "call ahead seating" thing. We called in and they told us there would probably be a table ready somewhere around 5:45. No problem. We get the around 5:30 and get a little pager thingy. (Number 42) We wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait. Finally, something like half an hour later, my dad asks the hostess why we haven't been seated yet. Turns out THEY CROSSED US OFF THE LIST!!! We sat there and they gave our table to someone else.... They ended up giving us our drinks and appetizers for free, though. :) We must have waited an hour for our table. It was insane.

In other news... Several days ago, (Maybe even a couple of weeks ago) I wrote something that I would call a suicide note. Obviously, I haven't used it, but I didn't destroy it yet either. I was flipping through the folder it was hidden in at school, naming almost each thing for my ex-girlfriend who asked what all was in there. At that one, I said "Something you don't need to know about" and kept going. Then she stopped me and asked what it was. I tried so hard to tell her, but I couldn't. I just broke down and let her read it. This scared me because there were things I hadn't told her about me in there, primarily my indecision about believing in God. I figured she would overreact, but she didn't. Instead she acted like she knows what it feels like. I have no idea how she could possibly know.

Well, I wanted to hide out in the closet again tonight, but I didn't get a chance. I probably won't get to again until Wednesday or Thursday.

I can't wait until 3:10 on Thursday. School ends until 6:00 (As far as I'm concerned, anyhow) some day mid-August. I can't stand school too much longer.

*howls*

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Sunday, May 13, 2007

Sorry it's only 10:20 and not 11:30.

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For once I have things i could post about, but I'm not truly in the mood.

Just a while ago, that is around 9:30PM CDT, I desperately wanted to be alone. So much so that I didn't even want light to accompany me. I hid out in my closet for about 45 minutes listening to music on my iPod. I knew no one would disturb me in there. So I sat and tried to think. I tried to figure out why I feel so deeply that I don't belong in this world in a human body, why I think that the only thing I can do is complain. I thought so hard but I didn't make any progress. I sat in the dark and waited, pretty much.

When I left my closet, it was still dark in my room. I gathered clothes and went to take a shower. I probably would have done that in the dark, had my dad not been in his bedroom. (We have to shower in the master bath because the other shower leaks.)

Yeah. For some reason I'm in a needy yet over-companied mood. I think I've just had too much of people. I think I need to scream or something. I honestly don't know what to do to solve my problems.

I kinda wish I could stand to tell my parents that I'm a wolf. I'm afraid of what they will do. I'm afraid of the possibility of seeing a shrink and never coming home again. :(

I would relate my experience at Outback Steakhouse this evening, but I'm honestly not in the mood. Maybe tomorrow's post.

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Saturday, May 12, 2007

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I know I shouldn't be doing this, but I will anyways.

YOU ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO SEE THIS WEBSITE! It's hilarious! Click here!

Then, come back and click here.
I know I'm evil for RickRolling you, but I couldn't resist.

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Friday, May 11, 2007

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Yet still, not much to be posted. I'll list what I did (besides school)

Wrote part of my story
Tried to fix computer driver problem
Piano lesson
Finally fixed computer driver problem
"Designed" wrapping paper in PaintShop Pro 9
Printed said wrapping paper on regular paper
Wrapped a blue iPod nano with said wrapping paper
Watched a little bit of TV
Made this post

Yeah, I know. I'm so exciting. I'm so exciting that I make myself tired. I'm off to bed again.

*howls*

Oh, and if you need advice on your iPod, DO NOT got to Target. They don't really know what they're doing in some cases.

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Thursday, May 10, 2007

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Yet again, not much to say...

I fixed the video thing and changed it. Stupid quote marks.
My yearbook came in at school. Yay.
I downloaded some new songs on iTunes.
I printed remotely.

Woohoo. Now I'm off to the springy thing in the corner. (bed)

*howls*

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Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Well...

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I have nothing to say except that I have a deep need to sleep now. I shall attempt to satisfy this need.

*howls*

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Monday, May 7, 2007

D: I missed deadline!

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I missed the 11:00 Central deadline to get this post in as Sunday, but for me, Sunday still reigns, so get over it. :P

Anyways, -someone- double-tagged me. I have no absolutely idea what I should do with this...

1. While some may think to the contrary, I have not yet seen college. Presently, I take classes as a high school sophomore.
2. Simple math defies my logic, yet I pass Math. Writing makes sense to me, yet I fail English. (Probably because I can't stand forced reading)
3. I lack planning in my life. I have no idea what I will do with my life.
4. Though a pupil of a piano instructor, I don't think I'm gaining much out of the experience.
5. Crazy. Need I say more?

And in case actual structure untold's lack:

1. (Something about education?) College hasn't graced me yet, nor has high school finished with me.
2. (Something about [domesticated?] animals?) I know a special connection with canids...
3. (Something about a musical instrument?) I "study" piano, but I still suck.
4. (Some random trait?) I believe that I lack something human and have something wolf instead.
5. (Something totally random?) OMG! WEREWOLVES! :)

Well, that was great. My list of "pp1z2t49"(pplz2tag) can be described as "extremely short." I shall do something unconventional and choose one from my list and ask them to pick three people on theirs instead of two.
Random Computer Choice: Darkwolfprincess. You appear to be officially and unconventionally tagged.

Anyways, since Ihave finished with that for now, I'll blab a bit.

This weekend, I had two three things I supposedly had to do: write a research essay for history, revise a persuasive essay for english, and read The Grapes of Wrath (Steinbeck). What of that have I completed? Zero. This strengthens that I pretty much live in trouble. I hope I get sick or something so I can't go tomorrow, but knowing me, I would end up in school anyways.

Well, I will get going to get on with this homework I don't want to do. Maybe I'll finish before 2AM.

*howls*

EDIT: I just remembered that I never announced what that one post lacked! It lacked the verb "to be" anywhere in it. That lack, named "E-Prime", has blessed the recent posts of this blog. :)

EDIT: I finished the history assignment. I barely managed to avoid the use of "be", and therefore I have a little pride in myself at the moment. My only concern is that the teacher might think it's plagiarism, but it should pass an anti-plagiarism test any day at any rate.

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